i dont know how to express how i feel inside anymore..
now that everything is a blurr,i feel so empty & wrotten inside of me..
i'm just crumbling & you hurt me so much that i have now become ash..
how could i have fallen so easily for the one thing that was my true weakness.
you made me believe that you loved me..
and honest to god i did.
you chose her..
she isn't the goddes i had imagined her to be yet you chose her instead of me.
this was always about the fact that you told me im not good enough for you!
and i lost since you still chose her!
i'm not being selfish,but life is about what comes important to you.
and you got my head in a clot.
i was an idiot & i cant stop ruining & blaming myself over how much the things you said haunt my thoughts.
why do you have to hurt me this way?its killing me deep down & i am suffocating now that your gone..
i get in way to deep when i'm around you.
but i just loose myself completely because I LOVE YOU so much,
and maybe you might not understand why exactly..
but why did you ever tell me that YOU LOVE ME??
why do you have my picture in your wallet?
is that proof that i had fallen victim to your charm??
you were the one who started obsessing to see me & meet me.
and after you broke me for the first time about how you weren't being honest about already being in a relationship with someone else.
you were the one who begged me to give you a second chance.
but after i told you to validate your options,you left me hanging.
and yes i was bleeding that night in the car.
after seeing me cry from such words of angst out your lips, couldn't you see how much i loved you & it hurt that you would have to say such things?
you are so full of your self thinking that you're all great now.
and you had the cheak to tell me that you think that i am desperate to be with someone & that the reason why i love you so much..
WTF??!!
you refused to give me a try because you said she was 100% way better & of course i'm not much of an angel than she is..
i could understand if she was HOT!OR DROP DEAD GORGEOUS!but she was average & yet you spoke of her as if she was the goddess you awaited for your whole life..
if so,WTF WERE YOU DOING WITH ME??
oh yeah i have a resort to that ANSWER.
you tell my BEST friend that you had only pretended to love me because you felt sorry for me??YOU FELT WHAT??DO YOU WANNA REPEAT THAT TO MY FACE??!!
how dare you says such things!and then you can add on & say that i was just a sideline girl..
DID YOU HONESTLY THINK THAT SHE WOULDN'T TELL ME THIS YOU FUCKER?
BE HONEST!TELL ME THE FUCKING TRUTH!just tell me that you would only want me to last you a night & NOT MORE.
I'M NOT THAT DUMB ENOUGH NOT TO GET THE HINT!
but you insisted that i was something else.
then you still wanna keep my photo in your wallet under WHAT CIRCUMSTANCES??!!
I WANNA BURN YOU!
so that you know how the pain would be of hurting me.
DON'T YOU DARE LIE TO ME & SAY THAT YOU ONLY LOVED ME AS A FRIEND THIS WHOLE TIME!
THAT IS JUST FUCKING BULL & YOU KNOW IT!
I WOULDN'T HAVE EVEN BOTHERED TO LOOK TWICE AT SOME GAY FUCK LIKE YOU!
like she told you in the sms's,I'M MORE THAN CAPABLE OF GETTING SOMEONE BETTER THAN YOU!
but i thought of who you were on the inside & i LOVED you for that..
so alas,this would be the last song.
this would be the SONG TO SAY GOODBYE..
It's a choice to stay,
It's a dream yeah & I wanna wake,
You have blood on your hands & I'm feeling faint,
And honey yeah, you cant decide.
I'm a drug you don't wanna give up,
Smoke your cigarette & make your love flow,
You poured blood in my heart, I can't get enough,
I'm drowning & you can't decide.
It's not about geography or happensatnce,
You need tofly & take a chance,
You dont't need to soar to emptiness.
And float on high frever dance alone.
You're scared cause I feel like home.
I hear your voice & I knew right away,
If you were here what your eyes would say,
I have blood on my feet as I walk away.
River's are red, it's starting to rain.
I'm not gonna live for you or die for you.
Won't d anything anymore for you,
Because you leave me here by the other side.
You leave me here by the other side.
I won't live for you or die for you.
Won't do anything anymore for you.
Because yo leave me here by the other side.
Oh,you leae me here by the other side.
I won't live for you or die for you,
Do anything , anymore for you,
Because you left me here by the other side,
Oh,you leave me here by the other side.
I won't live for you or die for you,
Do anything anymore for you,
Because you leave me here by the other side.
You leave me here by the other side.
I won't live for you or die for you,
Won't do anything anymore for you.
I'm not gonna shed one more tear for you,
Shed one more tear for you,
I'm not gonna shed one more tear for you,
At least not'till Sunday Afternoon,Sunday Afternoon.
