The Average Hell House Stories Chapter 2:The Never Ending Love Stories

Theres a story about me and him.Even though I have the words to say,I just don’t know where to begin.When you feel as if everything in the world just seems perfect,sometimes it can jut give you a huge slap on your face.i got that slap,and now I jut cant erase the pain.Its like trying to bleech of a huge permenant ink stain from of your shirt or just washing your hands continuesly hopping that the blood stains will wash away.Though instead this time,its been bleeched permenantly to my heart.You know the feeling you get when you find someone you think is perfectly right for you and you just try to do whatever you can just to say hi.Well I didn’t give up so easily.I first met him on the day of my parents anniversary and well since then I never stopped thinking of him.well we did become friends after I waited about 5 months yeah things were great.At first everything seemed right.He was carring,sweet and kind and I was well ….i was just me.then it all changed when we started talking online.when he saw my display pic he probably thought what the fuck I couldn’t attract a hotter chick instead got its dump bag.so I figuered that the reason we talked less was cuz he thought I wasn’t preety enough to be his friend.then he started lieng.Again and again right to my face!It just kept on coming lie after lie after lie.I knew that he was lieng though I just wanted to see how much more I could take of it and of how many moe lies he would make.Well thing was that even though I liked him, I wanted our relationship to be nothing more then a friend ship as I knew that there was no deffinet possibility that he would possibly like me.Even though I was patient with the ways he was strting to treat me I just kept a silent distance.It was a week before his b’day and well I wanted to get him a present and I had been hasseling my friend to get the shirt that I had spaecailly ordered for him.Though when it finally arrvied I hadnt a clue what to do with it as every way I tried to give it to him never seemed to work.He avoided answering my calls and it made me really hurt!I felt like throwing every poem I wrote about him including his birthday present to his face!To tell you the truth I really was at the point of couldn’t careless about him.All I wanted to really say to him was that [‘It is really getting tierring how you treat me!i will admit I like you but want our realtionship to be no more then just friends!If you don’t want to be friends just say so becouse I don’t want to waste my time smsing you thinking you actually care when you don’t give a fuck so if you please just give me a simple yes or no so that I can throw away your present in the rubbish bin where it should really belong!]These are all the actuall words I really want to say to him.Though I really have to find a good time to do it!So wish me all the luck so I can finish chapter two of The Average Hell House Stories!

The Average Hell House Stories Chapter 1.5:Trying To Breath Oxygen!

A day i know without me in it,
Is something i know we can live without,
Though a day we live without light,
Will leave this earth in an endless drought.

Each time i try to understand you,
Each time i take a glimpse at your face,
Everyday that i keep thinking of you,
I just try to erase memories of your trace.

I cry my self all alone in the darkness,
Wishing that i could just dissapear,
And as i live with god ass my eye witness,
I know that my death bed is near.

I shed each tear without your presence,
Only all your memories that leave me pain,
You leave me in an instence,
Though in my heart you leave a stain.

Trying to breath oxygen,
Trying to bleech your stain of me,
Trying to find someone to listen,
Trying to find someone that can see.

The dagger i hold close to my chest,
Soon cuts my heart right open,
Evevn though the life i live now is like a test,
I just stand here dying and becoming wrotten.

The Average Hell House Stories Chapter 1:The Days That Went By.....

Lucifer's Stories.................

hi,my names amber krista.and yes i am a little devil inside.

but mostly im the kind of girl that would be playing my guitar,

drawing my life,honestly living in hell,and well the list just keeps going on.

now let me ask you a question.........

who in this world might not think that life is sometimes hell on earth??


truth is in a way it kindda is cuz well,u get punished for little sins on earth and the bigger ones when u die.


though u never know how big or painfull each punishment will become.


for me a punishment is each day.........wondering......waiting.......

hating your life......your self..........being alone.......with all kinds of confusion

then comes memories.................hmmmm..........??????

actually i waant 2 tell u about rejection.......that i can mostly go through everyday,

it always begins with a guy doesnt it??? well of course yes.....well here it goes....


theres this guy i know rite???and well i really liked him.even though he makes up all kinds of lies i just totally ignore them.....

thing is he had hurt my feelings so much!i mean honestly if u didn't wanna be friends you could honestly tell me cuz i can face rejection everyday.......

no matter what i kept thinking 2 my self that i was never good enough 4 this guy......

that he didnt like me cuz he probably thought i look ugly and well all kinds of other things guys usually think about girls like me....

well at first when we got 2 know each other he seemed nice,understanding and kind i guess.but now .......


he is soooooooooooo different and i guess he became like that after he saw how i looked like cuz it probably shocked him that i wasnt that hot or maby at all.days went by......and then weeks......


and maby after 2 weeks went pass i would try talking 2 him thinking well guys need space and well thats when i knew i was silently under rejection..........

then the days that went by made me soooooooo deppressed and i couldnt think or feel happy or smile even if i tried to and now my lifes a living hell.................


if only life was ever so kind??????well keep reading my blog 2 know what went on in my daily life...........

muahxxxiiiiieeeessssss chaws!